i am kaochan.

kaochan is my more miserable self. i try to keep this "me" persona and the kaochan persona separate, since she also doesn't show up often. kaochan's tumblr blog is a sideblog, and i plan to hide kaochan and kaochan's primary identity (me) from each other's online spaces. though i'm unsure whether my true self is kaorin and the "i" i believe is myself is a facade, or whether kaorin is simply a persona i allow to take over for when i am too depressed to go on, our personalities are for the most part the same. the most clear difference is that kaorin is a lot more withdrawn and a bit naiive. kaochan is an infj, 4w5.

usually, i use he/she (mostly he..) but i have a tendency to revert back to she/her when at my worst. its odd and i don't really understand but when i am miserable i am more comfortable being miserable as a girl. tldr; as kaochan, i will still go by he/she, just in a different order of preference (she/he). he is asexual and demiromantic.

when kaorin is around, the first to know will be her tumblr blog. she's also the one who composes music. tldr; "i" draw, kaorin composes. kaochan draws sometimes. it's a different style than my usual self's. i might post some here and on tumblr, maybe?

please keep in mind; i am a minor and currently attending high school.

いいこ いいこ とってもいいこ。ずーっといいこでおねんねしてね。いい夢ずーっと見せててあげる。死ぬまでずーっといてあげる

kaochan likes marine biology and music, mainly. theme is mutsumi+mortis because that's who i relate to most when kaochan is involved. also, i love avemujica and i play guitar, so it's fitting. she is also a big fan of ball jointed dolls and vocal synths. fun fact;kaochan and "i" are canadian/korean.

kaorin is looking for friends. she's pretty lonely with just me around, i think.